There is a thought that occurred to me this morning
that I hope will grow into something beautiful. I was in a class meeting last
night that talked about how the best fly fisherman will spend hours hand
crafting na imitation fly and carefully conceal a sharp hook in that deceiving
trap. And the apostle also talked about how fish are driven by hunger so they
will look and often times bite without realizing they are in any danger. Satan
is the same, he knows our weaknesses just as much if not more than ourselves,
and he will conceive very well crafted snares out of things that we may believe
are safe.
This morning I feel as though I have been blinded
for years. I have focused so much on losing weight that I will become obsessed
with the idea and I will do drastic things that can be very damaging to my
body. I have nearly starved myself before then binged dramatically for weeks
afterwards; which resulted in me being violently ill. I have bought several
different diet pills as well as worked out so long and hard that I forgot to
listen to my body, this has resulted in injury and exhaustion. Working out is a
very powerful healthy activity but when you disregard the needs of your body
and go too far it can lead to bad results.
My focus has been on weight and I know what the
universe brings when your focus is on a certain thing... more of what you are
thinking about. So what have I gotten? An extremely unhealthy rollercoaster of
weight loss and gain. Losing weight is a good thing, if it is being done for
the correct reason.
I know what I am supposed to do, I need to calm
myself, reflect on the beauty of health; and I need to take care of my body. I
need to eat only high quality beautiful foods that will fuel and nourish my
body. I need to do physical exercise with the motivation of cleansing my body
and making it strong.
God rejoices in a beautiful healthy body, but he
does not rejoice in abusing your body for the pleasurable image of the world. I
am repenting of this now and I am going to move forward with a new perspective
and new goals in mind.
I am grateful that I have some role models to help
me focus on the becoming healthy. I hope and pray that I can do this... I will
need my father’s help and anyone else he is willing to send me.
No comments:
Post a Comment